{"author_link":"\/users\/creative-sectors","author_name":"Creative Sectors","author_uid":"creative-sectors","comments":[],"epoch":1556575261,"event":"LD44","format":"md","ldjam_node_id":153545,"likes":8,"metadata":{"p_key":"130863","p_author":"Creative Sectors","p_authorkey":"1013899","p_urlkey":"347048","p_title":"Mental breakdown","p_cat":"LDJam ","p_event":"LD44","p_time":"1556575261","p_likes":"8","p_comments":"0","p_status":"WAYBACK","us_key":"1013899","us_name":"Creative Sectors","us_username":"creative-sectors","event_start":"1556236800","event_key":"75","event_name":"LD 44"},"node":{"_collation":{"body_sanitizer":"TextUtils::SanitizeHTML via existing importer","event":"LD44","removed_author":false},"_superparent":139254,"_trust":1,"author":13899,"body":"I give up, I pass up and abandon this time, again. I have to rethink how I will create a new strategy for developing a game. I won't say, I failed miserably, because I learned much and gathered new experiences.\n\nPositive aspects of the Ludum Dare 44:\n- I learned the basics of Godot Engine from zero.\n- Created a minimal platformer game.\n- Created graphics for a grayscale palette.\n\nNegative aspects of this time:\n- I am still a programmer, not an artist.\n- I procastrinate myself, and it breaks the flow of development, that takes precious time to rebuild the lost momentum.\n- I am into negative thinking and thoughts that kills my motivation.\n- I had no plan and haven't setup and tested my workflow. \n- Too many times I found something new for implementing \"just this time\", and I lost *a lot* for these new experiences.\n\nNeutral aspects of this competition:\n- I don't feel, that I can act as a team, currently I am missing knowledge and experience to build every aspects of a game.\n- If depression kicks in, I have to give up the fight as it won't help the advancement and just take more time to handle myself.\n\nThank you for inspiring me and I still hope, that one day I can return here. Until then, I have to decide what to do with my life and if I keep interesting in computer game development, then I will start to create small mini-games to gain more experience and maybe come up with a learning strategy or maybe gather some partners as well.\n[ETC from Creative Sectors]","comments":0,"created":"2019-04-29T20:25:11Z","files":[],"files-timestamp":0,"id":153545,"love":8,"love-timestamp":"2019-04-29T23:18:08Z","meta":[],"modified":"2019-04-29T23:18:08Z","name":"Mental breakdown","node-timestamp":"2019-04-29T22:08:29Z","parent":149398,"parents":[1,5,9,139254,149398],"path":"\/events\/ludum-dare\/44\/$149398\/mental-breakdown","published":"2019-04-29T22:01:01Z","scope":"public","slug":"mental-breakdown","subsubtype":"","subtype":"","type":"post","version":453172},"node_metadata":{"n_key":"153545","n_urlkey":"347048","n_parent":"149398","n_path":"\/events\/ludum-dare\/44\/$149398\/mental-breakdown","n_slug":"mental-breakdown","n_type":"post","n_subtype":"","n_subsubtype":"","n_author":"13899","n_created":"1556569511","n_modified":"1556579888","n_version":"453172","n_status":"WAYBACK"},"source_url":"https:\/\/ldjam.com\/events\/ludum-dare\/44\/$149398\/mental-breakdown","text":"I give up, I pass up and abandon this time, again. I have to rethink how I will create a new strategy for developing a game. I won't say, I failed miserably, because I learned much and gathered new experiences.\n\nPositive aspects of the Ludum Dare 44:\n- I learned the basics of Godot Engine from zero.\n- Created a minimal platformer game.\n- Created graphics for a grayscale palette.\n\nNegative aspects of this time:\n- I am still a programmer, not an artist.\n- I procastrinate myself, and it breaks the flow of development, that takes precious time to rebuild the lost momentum.\n- I am into negative thinking and thoughts that kills my motivation.\n- I had no plan and haven't setup and tested my workflow. \n- Too many times I found something new for implementing \"just this time\", and I lost *a lot* for these new experiences.\n\nNeutral aspects of this competition:\n- I don't feel, that I can act as a team, currently I am missing knowledge and experience to build every aspects of a game.\n- If depression kicks in, I have to give up the fight as it won't help the advancement and just take more time to handle myself.\n\nThank you for inspiring me and I still hope, that one day I can return here. Until then, I have to decide what to do with my life and if I keep interesting in computer game development, then I will start to create small mini-games to gain more experience and maybe come up with a learning strategy or maybe gather some partners as well.\n[ETC from Creative Sectors]","title":"Mental breakdown","wayback_source":[]}