{"author_link":"\/users\/negativice","author_name":"negativice","author_uid":"negativice","comments":[],"epoch":1603850963,"event":"LD47","format":"md","ldjam_node_id":232287,"likes":6,"metadata":{"p_key":"152168","p_author":"negativice","p_authorkey":"1008047","p_urlkey":"368673","p_title":"Stuck in a loop :(","p_cat":"LDJam ","p_event":"LD47","p_time":"1603850963","p_likes":"6","p_comments":"0","p_status":"WAYBACK","us_key":"1008047","us_name":"negativice","us_username":"negativice","event_start":"1601596800","event_key":"76","event_name":"Ludum Dare 47"},"node":{"_collation":{"body_sanitizer":"TextUtils::SanitizeHTML via existing importer","event":"LD47","removed_author":false},"_superparent":212256,"_trust":4,"author":8047,"body":"Hey everyone!(I let everything on my mind spill out and this post is probably gonna be a bit of downer :( )\n\nFirst I want to say thanks to everyone who played and rated my game, especially last few ratings that made it past the 20 needed ratings. I was gonna make an small update for the game improving some of the rough edges of the game and maybe make a post inviting people to try it out, but I didn't and still received the last few missing ratings, and I appreciate it a lot. I appreciate the people who look out for games falling behind on ratings and just people who played and rated my game in general.\n\nNow the results speak for themselves, my game didn't receive good ratings and they are fairly average, and that's because my game IS average, and I don't feel bad about my ratings, I'm happy people rated it honestly and I would have done the same, but I feel like I could have done a lot better.\n\nWhile I did miss the first day of the jam due to technical issues and was one day short compared to the other people, I still could have smoothed some of the rougher corners in post. And while I did make one patch, I didn't make the 2nd patch that I already had list of issues that I wanted to fix.\n\nAnd while I might have been busy some of the earlier days, I was free the last 4-5 days of the rating period. But I just couldn't do it :( I just couldn't sit down and start working... I would say I understand programming pretty well and I like to challenge my self by making complex things(or at least what I think are complex). So it wasn't the issue about not knowing how to fix things, so I have fairly smart head on my shoulder, I had plenty of time... I have food and water, and I have a roof over my head - warm little apartment, I live alone so no one was there to disturb my work, all the comforts person might need... so I had no obstacles and yet.. I just couldn't get my self to make a little patch for my game. Sure it would have probably taken me like 12 hours or so, but I like programming and I like making games... So I really don't know why I am struggling :(\n\nAnd lately I have noticed that this is reoccurring theme, after I moved out to live in this apartment all by my self, I realized that I am struggling a lot with doing even basic stuff, not because I don't know how to do it but just because I cant do it. And I am also struggling with finding fulfilling job or any job for that matter and even more so struggle staying in the job.. I'm struggling making ends meet, and while I am minimalist and it helps bring the costs down quite considerably, and I have help of my family. I usually work on some odd projects and what not and make some money, but I don't know how sustainable this is. I feel like I'm stuck in a loop and I'm spiraling down towards darkness and void :(\n\nI have a good head on my shoulders(I think..) and can come up with ways to make money but when it comes to actually doing it I just cant do anything\n\nAnd while I just realized  this last few years, when I think back to it, I realize that I've struggled most of my life with doing things and that I have very low motivation to do anything, back then I thought I was just lazy, but now I realize that this problem might be bigger... and the name of the theme this ludum dare couldn't be more fitting to my situation... Its as if its there to taunt me.\n\nI have good health, all the basic human comforts one might need, but yet I am struggling fighting this invisible enemy and I don't think I am doing a good job at it :(\n\nAnyway, a cry later, I don't know why I am writing this here, I usually try to keep this to my self, maybe it was cry for help or maybe some sort of catharsis..\n\nAnyway I hope you are doing better than me and I hope, whoever or wherever you are, that you can achieve your dreams","comments":2,"comments-timestamp":"2020-10-28T02:32:10Z","created":"2020-10-28T00:58:36Z","files":[],"files-timestamp":0,"id":232287,"love":6,"love-timestamp":"2020-10-28T02:29:44Z","meta":[],"modified":"2020-10-28T02:32:10Z","name":"Stuck in a loop :(","node-timestamp":"2020-10-28T02:09:23Z","parent":227519,"parents":[1,5,9,212256,227519],"path":"\/events\/ludum-dare\/47\/satorbit\/stuck-in-a-loop","published":"2020-10-28T02:09:23Z","scope":"public","slug":"stuck-in-a-loop","subsubtype":"","subtype":"","type":"post","version":709848},"node_metadata":{"n_key":"232287","n_urlkey":"368673","n_parent":"227519","n_path":"\/events\/ludum-dare\/47\/satorbit\/stuck-in-a-loop","n_slug":"stuck-in-a-loop","n_type":"post","n_subtype":"","n_subsubtype":"","n_author":"8047","n_created":"1603846716","n_modified":"1603852330","n_version":"709848","n_status":"WAYBACK"},"source_url":"https:\/\/ldjam.com\/events\/ludum-dare\/47\/satorbit\/stuck-in-a-loop","text":"Hey everyone!(I let everything on my mind spill out and this post is probably gonna be a bit of downer :( )\n\nFirst I want to say thanks to everyone who played and rated my game, especially last few ratings that made it past the 20 needed ratings. I was gonna make an small update for the game improving some of the rough edges of the game and maybe make a post inviting people to try it out, but I didn't and still received the last few missing ratings, and I appreciate it a lot. I appreciate the people who look out for games falling behind on ratings and just people who played and rated my game in general.\n\nNow the results speak for themselves, my game didn't receive good ratings and they are fairly average, and that's because my game IS average, and I don't feel bad about my ratings, I'm happy people rated it honestly and I would have done the same, but I feel like I could have done a lot better.\n\nWhile I did miss the first day of the jam due to technical issues and was one day short compared to the other people, I still could have smoothed some of the rougher corners in post. And while I did make one patch, I didn't make the 2nd patch that I already had list of issues that I wanted to fix.\n\nAnd while I might have been busy some of the earlier days, I was free the last 4-5 days of the rating period. But I just couldn't do it :( I just couldn't sit down and start working... I would say I understand programming pretty well and I like to challenge my self by making complex things(or at least what I think are complex). So it wasn't the issue about not knowing how to fix things, so I have fairly smart head on my shoulder, I had plenty of time... I have food and water, and I have a roof over my head - warm little apartment, I live alone so no one was there to disturb my work, all the comforts person might need... so I had no obstacles and yet.. I just couldn't get my self to make a little patch for my game. Sure it would have probably taken me like 12 hours or so, but I like programming and I like making games... So I really don't know why I am struggling :(\n\nAnd lately I have noticed that this is reoccurring theme, after I moved out to live in this apartment all by my self, I realized that I am struggling a lot with doing even basic stuff, not because I don't know how to do it but just because I cant do it. And I am also struggling with finding fulfilling job or any job for that matter and even more so struggle staying in the job.. I'm struggling making ends meet, and while I am minimalist and it helps bring the costs down quite considerably, and I have help of my family. I usually work on some odd projects and what not and make some money, but I don't know how sustainable this is. I feel like I'm stuck in a loop and I'm spiraling down towards darkness and void :(\n\nI have a good head on my shoulders(I think..) and can come up with ways to make money but when it comes to actually doing it I just cant do anything\n\nAnd while I just realized  this last few years, when I think back to it, I realize that I've struggled most of my life with doing things and that I have very low motivation to do anything, back then I thought I was just lazy, but now I realize that this problem might be bigger... and the name of the theme this ludum dare couldn't be more fitting to my situation... Its as if its there to taunt me.\n\nI have good health, all the basic human comforts one might need, but yet I am struggling fighting this invisible enemy and I don't think I am doing a good job at it :(\n\nAnyway, a cry later, I don't know why I am writing this here, I usually try to keep this to my self, maybe it was cry for help or maybe some sort of catharsis..\n\nAnyway I hope you are doing better than me and I hope, whoever or wherever you are, that you can achieve your dreams","title":"Stuck in a loop :(","wayback_source":[]}