So I was hyped for this LD.  Cleared my schedule.  Ready to go.

Woke up, felt a little groggy and off, but not too bad, and still totally hyped.  Excitedly waited the hours down to theme announcement.  Then it happened.

90 minutes before theme announcement I started feeling rather sick.  Okay, fine, I can probably still LD sick.  I mean it’s basically just staying home and chilling in my pajamas, right?

Yeah, no.  At theme announcement I spent a little while tinkering with ideas and decided to go for a 2d platformer.

I then spent over an hour completely and utterly failing to create the absolute basics of a 2d platformer.  I looked at older code as a reference, and I just could not put these pieces together in my head to put them together in the game.  After more than an hour of this, I decided to go take a nap.

The nap has helped.  The brain fog is a little less severe, but I still can’t seem to organize my thoughts enough to organize basic elements for a game.  I can’t even get a simple prototype running because I just can’t think.  Not feeling too hot physically, either; the stomach upset is annoying, but the brain fog is absolutely driving me up a wall.

I keep thinking about how little time is left and that just seems to make it worse, adding anxiety to illness.  I have been reminding myself that I popped into the Compo on a whim last LD (my first!) 9 hours in and still banged out a functional game, from scratch, in about 24 hours – albeit that game had very small scope.  I know I can do this.  Just not right now.

I’ll probably sleep some more in a bit.  Maybe I’ll feel better in a little while and manage to put something together.  Maybe I’ll tinker with art for a little while and leave coding for later.

Maybe I’ll go for the Jam this time (again, once feeling a little clearer), for the extra time and the ability to re-use some older code as a starting point.

Or maybe I’ll drop completely and do what I did every LD prior to last – watch streamers make their own stuff 😉  Much fun, much learning.  And it’s been a lot of fun looking through posts here and seeing what others have accomplished in 6 hours, you guys rock!

Right now, though, I’m just trying to clear my head.  Stupid head, why you do this thing?