Hey, just wanted to share something I've been thinking about lately. It's easy to take results from a single Ludum Dare (or ANY point-in-time measurement of your skill) and view that as something that reflects your value. But growth is hard to see and even harder to measure, it's slow, and it's not linear. My team has just had our most successful LD entry ever with our game Seance. But, while I'm proud of our results, I'm more proud of how this reflects my long-term growth.
Don't measure by your peaks
I've been doing Ludum Dare since 2013 and have participated in 34 entries (I've doubled-up a handful of times, doing both Compo and Jam). I had some early success, getting an audio medal in my second-ever game, but quickly realizing that it was a right-place-right-time scenario. I would get frustrated each jam at how WILDLY my audio ratings would fluctuate. It was really hard to accept for a while that, while my best was excellent, my average wasn't as good as I convinced myself it was. It took 5 years for me to get another Gold (which I had originally convinced myself would come easily).
It's easy to view circumstantial victories as indicative of your quality. But the truth is that ALL of us spend more time at our average than at our best. So I've made it my goal over the last decade or so to raise the floor of my work, not necessarily try to boost the wild peaks. And, if the floor gets higher, your capacity for those bigger jumps increases as well.
Don't measure by your valleys
On the flip-side, some days even your average skill will feel out of reach. I'm coming off a pretty long stretch of this. It's really easy to feel like current lows won't let up and it's really easy to let a less-than-successful endeavor ruin something that you otherwise enjoy. Take the lessons you can from the lows and work your way back up to normal.
Put the work in
It's REALLY easy to view an individual victories as success, but the point for LD (and life in general) should be about the process, not just one-off validations of your skill. Consistent effort in a targeted direction gives you momentum and gives you experience. Not every time out is going to be your best, but if you can learn something from it, it can be valuable.
Get objective feedback
Surround yourself with people that make you better. I've been collaborating with @alexrose for most of my LD career, and he's never one to mince words. If something isn't good he'll let me know. If something IS good, he'll also let me know. I have a handful of other trusted collaborators that I know will point out the things I tend to gloss over. Get some of those people in your world as well.
Final thoughts
I'm including a graph below of my year-over-year rating improvements. I have some peaks in there. I have some valleys in there. But the progress is clear. Find a way to measure your own progress and give yourself enough time for the fluctuations to even themselves out before viewing the peaks OR valleys as a complete reflection of your skill.
